Loveless's Dairy

2011-12-31T01:37:00.001+08:00

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Sorry for not posting for so long !

211111 <3

Happy Birthdayy Babygirl ! <3

2011-11-07T01:37:00.002+08:00

Heyy LOVES ! I'm back posting again ! (:

Having my off days till Thursday ! -.- It's so gonna be my boring days ! -'-

Yeahhh (Y) ! I dyed my hair ! :D HAHAHA !

Last Friday , 4Nov

When to watch movie with my LOVES ! Alvin , Alicia , Abel , TingTing & Vivian <3

We watched 23:59 ! :D HAHA ! It's not scary at all lehh ! So damn funny ! :P

Gonna end here already ! It's like so boreeeeeddd !

2011-09-30T22:52:00.001+08:00

13 more days ! YEAH YEAH ! Can't wait ! But first , EXAMS ! :( Kinda scare ehh ! :( But will try my best oh (:

4T1 ,

Please do contact each other ok !

I'll miss you all alot ! Miss me too ok :P

Anything just give me a text / pm me at Facebook ! (:

Hope we could meet up sometimes !

Love you guys alot ! (L) ! I miss your time in class now ! :\

Loves , LovelessBabyy

Good luck to everyone who's taking their exams ! Jiayous ! (:

Booked BBQ pit at Fajar , 419 Basketball court there !

Hope you guys will come ! :)

16.09.2011
Happy LovelessBabyy Is Back from Dead ! (:

2011-09-18T15:55:00.003+08:00

Thanks for coming back ! <3 ! [ FJTM , VLLF & KT ]

2011-08-23T18:43:00.000+08:00

It's going to be the 7th months ! I'm still waiting for ya ! [ ATLM . KT . LLFV ] I really miss the old you and the old us ! Sighh ! I still don't know why ! Why can't you just come back ? Didn't I changed already ? But I hope after this year you will be back ! If not I really cannot sees you guys again after this year ~ Pleaseee ~ Let the miracle happensssss ~ :c

2011-08-19T20:40:00.000+08:00

Hello ! I'm back posting ~

N level prelim just ended today ! Woahh ! Scare siahh ! Just Hope that I can pass ~ :D Pray hardd !

Have been going to youth hub this few weeks ~ Go there played pool ~ :D My skills drop alot siahh !

Gonna end here already !

To the idiot : If you wanna comment on me go on then .

You're just too retard -.-

Comment what you want because I don't give a damn to it !

2011-07-29T22:13:00.000+08:00

Hope you like it ~

Loveless wants you back !

2011-07-02T16:44:00.003+08:00

5th Month of us in this way ....

I don't know why must you treat me like this !

I'm sorry already . You don't know the reason of why you're hating me and then why can't you forgive and forget my mistakes? Why only for other people ? I'm also a human . A human that need friends ! Why can't we just patch back as friends?

Or isit you don't understand ?

It's the 5th month already... I'll still wait ! And I'm still waiting ! Please come back can ? I'll change ... I'm willing to do anything as long as you're back , As long as you forgive and forget my mistake... Everyone has made a mistake...

You use to be someone who easily to forgive and forgets mistake and now you turned into someone mean . You said I changed alot . No ! It's not me but you ! You changed alot . Not me ! I hope you will understand !

Please I need a miracle !

I need a miracle

I wanna you back by my side

Give me another chance will you?

I'm sorry that I hurt you

But sorry doesn't turn back times

For all that I have done to you

I wish I could make it right

Missing ATLM.LPJC.LLFV.ST.S.KT

2011-06-25T23:29:00.000+08:00

Hello ! I'm back posting (:
Sorry for not posting for so long . Even if I didn't no one would ask why I didn't post . Cause there's no readers at all . No one tag me ! No one read !

Mummy brought me an IPhone 4 ! Wow ! Haha ! Nothing to show off about... LOL .

Last sunday , I kenna Hand Foot Mouth Disease ! Wtfh ! So unlucky ! Till now also haven't fully recover... All because of my brother ! He also had it ! And he had it first !

Sttupiiiddddddd !

Today went to get Amy's injection ! Wait for her turn for soooo longg ! Then end up cannot take injection . Cause she vomit ! And her skin got itchy ! Scare later she got fever ! Gonna go there again on 13 July (: Hope she's allowed to get an injection !

Gonna end here soon !

See ya ! Please tag !

Girls ,

It's going to the 5th month ! And I'm still waiting while I try my best to change ! I swear I will do it !

I miss you all alot alot ! Miss the times we had !

I miss A.C.L.S.S.T

2011-06-16T18:35:00.000+08:00

Hello ~

It's been so long I've been updating my blog ..

I Miss A.C.L.S.S.T alot ! :'(

Everyone is having lots of fun except me ! Everyday rot at home !

BabyAmy is now 2months old already.. She bite me till bleed -.- Pain eh ! She have go for a injection soon..

I don't know what to post about .. There's alot of things in my mind .. I hope someone who be there to listen ~

2011-06-10T13:11:00.000+08:00

Happy birthdayy Girlfriend ! <3
This is for you ! Hope you like it !
Takecareee ! Have fun todayy !

May all your dreams come true ~

HOPING ~

2011-06-04T08:55:00.001+08:00

HiYeom ~ Early in the morning at 5am kenna woke up by my idoit brother then BabyAmy wanna eat , trying to make her sleep till now .. I cannot sleep and yet she's sleeping now o.o

It's been 4 months already ~ And yet , I'm still waiting ! How long can I wait , I don't know... All I know is that I'll still wait for you all no matter what happenens ! I miss you girls alot ! I miss spending times together ! Having alot of fun together ! My life really changes alot ! I've been going out lesser and lesser when you're gone ! Because I'm used to it when I only go out with you girls ... Now I can even stay at home for 24 hours ! Seriously , without you , my life sucks alot ! FML manzxc ! Totally like hell ! I don't know what to do siahh ! But people asked me to be focused on my studies ... I'll try to. But I'll still keep thinking of you girls ~

Sighhh ! Hope I can talk to you soon ! See you soon ! Go out with you sooon too ! Girls , I really don't wanna you to leave me !

6days more to Girlfriend's birthdayy <3
* A video will be posted on facebook about her & Upload here too !

I will try my best

2011-06-03T01:34:00.000+08:00

No taggers at all ? Wth !

I've been trying real hard ! I'm that I won't give up... But... I'm scare ! That you would really leave me alone... :'(

How I wish that you would me right beside me...

I've been thinking negatives again... :(

Dreaming of you all everyday... Miss you all alot !

How I hope you know what I mean , what I feels....

I won't be gonna see you for 1month... :[ Shall bear with it...

I Miss You Girls ! <3 Our memories will never be forgotten & will always be kept in my heart !

I'm trying my best ~

2011-05-31T21:08:00.000+08:00

Hi yeom ! It's holiday already ! And yet , I'm not even having fun... :'(

Everyday our lovely memories started to re-flased in my mind...
I still miss those times together alot !

Chatted with Sissy yesterday night , Suddenly she said about that time we go to zhenghua park slack... I still remember that time , It's so fun... I remembered babygirl fall down from the swing ;x

Girlfriend got come also. But she went home early with AliciaSoh Jie. Damn fun siahh ! How I hope everything could go back to normal like before ! I really really miss you ! :'( And yet, there only one thing I can do is just thinking of you in my mind , my dreams & my heart ! Sighh ! I really hope all this is just a nightmares ! PLEASE GOD ! TURN BACK THE TIMES TO FEB ! SO I CAN CHANGE EVERYTHING BACK TO NORMAL ! AND I CAN BE WITH THEM FOREVER ! I REALLY MISS THEM ! PLEASE DON'T LET THEM LEAVE MY LIFE ! T.T YOU SHOULD KNOW THAT THEY ARE VERY IMPORTANT TO ME ! SO PLEASE GIVE ME A MIRACLE ! - Everyday I pray , Everyday I hope for it to happen... No matter what I'll still wait !

I'll try my best !

2011-05-27T23:43:00.000+08:00

WORST RESULTS FOR MY MATHS ! -'-

What the fuuuckk ! I got U grade for my maths ! First time in my life siah ! :(

Holidays ! -.- ! Confirm rot at home derhhs ! KNS !

I'll have to try hard next time !

I'll have to try my very best to get back what belongs to me !

Hope nothing bads is gonna happened in June Holidays & after those holidays !

I'm trying my best ~

2011-05-26T17:46:00.000+08:00

Hate today ! Fuuck larhhs ! -'-

Damn sad today ! :(

Give her birthday present that I made by myself then she don't want . Her friend take and see , She didn't even take a peep ! Wtf sia ! I also never do anything wrong ! Why don't want take ? Still give me back the present ! T.T I also never force them to write thoese wishing letter to you ! Damn fucking sad you know anot !

* CRY *

I'm trying my best ~

2011-05-21T17:22:00.000+08:00

Hello !
Yesterday went to bukit batok to get my puppy ! (:

Omg ! She's sooooo Cuteeee ! Look like bearbear ! :D

Name : Amy

Breed : Maltese
Sex : Female

DOB : 12 April 2011

Love her alot manzxc ~

20days more to her birthdayy ! Miss her alot...

2011-05-19T16:24:00.000+08:00

Hi yeom ~

Today get back results lerhhs ...

Damn sad ! :( So disappointed in myself ! :(

All my paper down like crazyy ! :<

Sadddddddd ! T.T

I promise I'll try HARDER next time !

I'm scare ! I don't know what to dooo ! :(

I'm scare to lose you ! I'm scare that I'll fail my N level :(

Stresssssssssss lahhhhhhhhh ! T.T

Gf - Grats ! Your English Improved alot ! Nice One ! Jiayous !

BabyGirl - Grats ! You passed all subject right? Nice one ~

Sister&Wifeyy - Try harder ok ! Jiayous ~

MummyS - Jiayous ! Try harder next time ~

I'm trying my best ~

2011-05-17T14:38:00.000+08:00

Hi Yeom ! I'm back posting ! (:

No taggers ! My tagbox is dying ! :(

Sorry for not posting for so long... Cause it's exam period and I've to try to study.....

Hope can pass all of my subject...

I really don't know what can I do to get you back...

It's been 3months already...

One by one treat me like that... Like I've done something wrong like that... What did I do wrong? Why must you all treat me in this way? I really don't know what's in your mind...

Everything reminds of you...

I've try so hard to change... And yet , you didn't even notice as you kept seeing me in my bad side...

Sighhhhh !

2011-05-07T19:48:00.000+08:00

HiYeom !

Damn sad sia ! I don't know what to do now !
She suddenly like that treat me ! :(

I wanna die ! There's no reasons for me to be in this world when so many people hate me !

I'm trying my best

2011-05-01T19:25:00.000+08:00

Hi yeom !

Today I study again... Only science ! Tuesday till maths exams , i want to stay in school and ask mrs goh to teach me maths !
Science I still cmi ! X.x
Today study till headache ! ;(

Now feeling better already ! :)
Gonna end here ! Bye yeom ! Imy girls ! :(

To Dearest :
Cheer up ! Don't sad ! You sad I sad !

Anything just text / call me ! My number 24hr hotline for you eh ! (:

It's the 3rd month since we separated ! :(

And yet i'm still waiting... and trying my best to changes...

But more and more people left me... leaving me in a darkness place... Why? I don't know why !? But all I can do is wait and change ! I'll wait for you ! I swear ! I promises I will !
I wonder what's on your mind now...
I wonder what can I do to changes and get you back...
Why must it be the people I loved leaves me?
Why must it be me? Can it don't be me?

Everything makes me remind of you !
Can someone help me?
I need more advices ! Now there's no one I can go to crying or even a heart to heart talk with... No one is there for me anymore... :(

2011-04-30T23:21:00.000+08:00

In the end , you still leave me... Without one word from you...
And just what she asked you to...
But why it me? Why must it be me? Can it not be me?
I've been waiting , trying my best to change.. and yet one by one all leaving me...
Why must it be me the one who always cry , sad and beening hurt ! :( Can it not be me? I've been suffering all this pains & hurts for 3months ! :( Everyday I try ! Everyday I think of you... ! And that's what I get? So sad to hear that you can't talked to me anymore :( After hearing that , tears started rolling down my cheeks ! :(
So sad sia ! T.T I didn't do anything wrong what... Why must it happened in this way ? :(

How I wish I'm dead now ! I don't wanna suffer all this ! You should have know that I can't be myself anymore when you're not in my life anymore... You know it don't you ! :(

Damn fucking sad ! :(
Hope I can get into an accidents and die !
Hope someone can kill me now !
Hope when I sleep and I will never wake up anymore !
Just simply hope that I can die !

I will try my best

2011-04-30T22:28:00.000+08:00

Hi yeom !
Study-ed today at home .. study half way go sleep ....

Fuck sia ! I don't know how to do maths ! :(

Dearest .
Please don't ignore me ! You've been ignoring me now adays ! Talked to in facebook chat , you never reply :(
Please don't ignore me !

Bye yeom ! Gonna end here ! Nighty to them !

I will try my best

2011-04-29T23:56:00.000+08:00

Hi Yeom !
Today wanted to treat family to eat derhhs ! Cause Mother day & cousin's bithday are next week only ! But next week I need to studyy ! Exams coming alreadyy ! :( I haven't even studyy yet !

Then end up , Mummy hungry already but the time I want to treat them was 10pm - 11 pm then cousin is busy with his MacBook & DJ set he just brought today ! Good eh ! Everytime got cool things ! Me leh? I got nothing ! I want IPad 2 ! Heard from cousin that IPad 2 is cheaper than IPad ! :P IPad = $1260 IPad 2 = $1108 ! Cheap right !? Should I buy? I also don't know sia ! :o
Ok larhhs ! Gonna end here already ! Bye Yeom !
Nighty to them ; Wifeyy , Sisters , Mummys , BabyGirl & GirlFriend !

Question -
If you are allowed to buy
IPad 2 Or Galaxy Tag , which one would you buy?

I don't wanna fall for you again !

I know that we're impossible !
What can I do? Sighhh !

I will try my best ~

2011-04-28T17:49:00.001+08:00

Hi Yeom !

Today after school went slacking with Loves ; Suhailah , Shirlaine & Radiahh (:

Buy food from 7-eleven then go under block eat...

After awhile , Radiah go homee... Me , suhailah & shirlaine sit there and talk... After that , go buy Ice Cream eat ! :P
Then go homeee ! Nothing to do at homee sia ! :(
Exams are coming ! How?? I haven't even start studying ! Omgg ! I don't wanna fail !! Must study already !

Bye yeom ! Gonna end here ! Will be posting next time ! (:

42 days more to your birthday ! Still long uhh ! Haha ! I've made a video for you !

Can I talk to you?
I've been thinking negatives now a days... Moody mood ! :(

Only in my lovely dreams , I can see postive things about us !
Hope it's not just a dream but real !

I will try my best ~

2011-04-27T16:44:00.000+08:00

Today after school meet socken for lunch...

But I really don't believe that you saw me and you go walked away ... That's what socken and the other girl said to me... :(

Damn moody !

I will try my best ~

2011-04-26T19:06:00.000+08:00

Hi yeom !

Today go home straight... Bathe , Use Facebook then 4plus sleep -.-

Aiyoo ! Why I keep sleep now a days !? I should be studying !

Exam coming already ! Wtf !? From tomorrow onwards , I must study already ! Jiayou Loveless ! :3

Girlgirl , Sorry to scare you today ! You did scared me too -.-

Hope you're fine... Hope your leg ok already ! Get well soon !

Hope you two can faster get back together like how you two used to be... The Best Brother like before ! I don't like it when you two didn't talk to each other... *pray*

Gonna end here ! Will be posting next time ! Bye Yeom ! <3

I will try my best

2011-04-25T17:48:00.001+08:00

Hi Yeom ~ :3

Today have chinese oral exam :( I hate it !!

My chinese suck to the max ! I can't read at all ! Wtf !

Hope will pass eh ! :3

Girlgirl , your leg ok anot? Hope it's alright !

Why so careless ? Heart pain sia ! Take good care of yourself ok !

Get well soon !

Happy bithday to My Chiobu , Hafiz ! :D

Wish you all the best ! Good Luck in your exams !

May all your dreams come true ! :D

Bye Yeom ! Gonna end here ! Will be posting next time ! :D

* Taggers ! Please tag more ! My tag box dying eh !

Thank you ! :)

I will try my best

2011-04-24T16:28:00.002+08:00

Hi yeom ! (:
Yesterday afternoon , meet Dearest ! (L)
So happy to see her ! :D
Then go basketball court slack... Saw HIM ! :D
He's so hoot ! (L) ! Then Slack there with Kim Pig , Idris Bestie & Dearest ! (:
After that , Dearest go home ... After awhile , I go home... Went home bathe and then go out with brother...
Was going to meet Minyang then go his BBQ ! :D
Went to meet him at his friend's house ! (: Then walked to his mother working place... Took his father lorry...
Sit behind... Pigu pain :x After that go minyang's house take things ! Then I asked to it infront...
then go the place where they wanted.. Reached there... Sit there eat... Then played sand with minyang's sister !
She's so cute ! Haha ! :D Then went catching crabs... Me caught baby crabs only !
Minyang's father caught big crabs... Played there till 4am plus ! Then go back minyang house rest ! Sit there and chit chat till 7am plus then cabbed home ! (:
Went home bathe and sleep ! Sleep till 3pm !

Bye Yeom ! Ending here ! Will be posting next time !

24April2011 ! :D
Happy Birthdayy , Alvin Korhhs ! (:
May all your dreams come true !
Wish you all the best ! Jiayou and Good Luck for your exams ! (:

2011-04-23T01:29:00.000+08:00

Wtf sia ! Like that also want fight !
Cb ! Want go out on that day say lah ! Knn !
Keep make her angry for fuck ! Everytime she angry is all because of you ! And I always kenna also ! not my problem can become my problem !
Fucker sia ! Nabuayy !

I will try my best

2011-04-22T21:17:00.000+08:00

I hate my life ! It's so boring !

I used to be having fun ! But after something happened... Everything changed in my life...

People leaving me... Boredom came finding me... And there's nothing I can do...?

FuckMyLife lah ! How I hope I can get back to how I used to be...

~ Everyday living in a boring day ~

Rotting at home.. almost everyday... Hate it alot ! I'm jealous of everyone ! They everyday can have fun... Me leh? Nothing... Stay at home facing computer for 24hour... They can even go out... I want to go out.. I can go out.. But no one go out with me... Looks like all I can do is to sleep or study...

Now a days I'm so sleepy. Like I'm dying soon...

After eating jiu sleep... All I do is sleep and eat... Wtf !? Sighh !

Tomorrow maybe going out fishing at night with Minyang and his family... And will be going the next day... Should I go? I don't know sia ! WTF ! I cannot even decide...

I feel so useless !

I will try my best

2011-04-21T21:03:00.000+08:00

It's like we drifting far apart again...

I really don't like it in this way....

I don't know what to do anymore !

How I really hope all this is just a nightmare !

Hope it's not really ! * wake up , Loveless ! Wake up from this nightmare please ! *

All this isn't real right ? Someone please tell me it's not real !

Today was Fajar run day ! Woke up at 6am... Brush teeth , wash my face , wear my P.E attire then tie my hair...

After that , eat maggie ! [: Then Mummy made bread for me to bring along in case I'm hungry ! So sweet eh ! :D

Met Jecelyn at Fajar Lrt ! Reached at the MRT station of Chinese garden then meet Zhi Ying ! (:

I wasn't running as my leg got problem ! :[

Me sitting there using IPad ! :D Taking care of bags (:

So shock to see them running back in a fast time ! Scary sia !

Then saw her back lerhhs ! But she looked sick after running like she's gonna faint ! Scared me ! :( Hope she's fine now !

After that , When going home it rained ! :(

Jecelyn and me walked under the rain but lucky it stop ! :P

Went home , eat , bathe then sleep ! :D

Just woke up not long ago ! Brother came home in red skin -.-

He kenna sunburn ! HAHAHA ! Redtouchlight ! :D

Gonna end here already ! Bye Yeom !

It's not sad when I look back

at all the memories & good times

we had together ,

It's makes me sad when

I'm like nothing to you anymore....

When you mean everything to me !

2011-04-17T19:19:00.000+08:00

Rotting at home for the whole day ! :(

Damn bored ttm ! Nothing to do !
Feels so restless !

How I wish I could go out... with you girls again !

It's can't be true at all.... You might not even want to go out with me...

Sighh ! Gonna try harder ! *Pray*

Gonna end here ! I'm feeling so restless ! I wanna sleep already ! (:

Bye yeom ! Nighty to you girls ! <3

2011-04-16T21:27:00.000+08:00

Happy die ! Although it's a boring day !
But thanks to my lovely sister ! <3 Love her alot !
Finally we are out together ! :D I'm so happy !

To you :

Heyy ! Thanks ! Thanks for being there for me !
Although I do really irritates you sometime... But I still know you cares about me (:

Everytime when I'm down , you're already there to cheer me up ! Thanks ! I love you to the max !
I would have to try harder on something (: Hope we could go out again (:

Love ,
Loveless Babyy IsRegret&Jealous

Just came home and finishes my bathe :D

Was at basketball court YongChang & His Friends , Seng & didi ! :D

Then my lovely sister came to find me ! (Y)

So happy ! Gonna end here ! Will be posting next time (: Bye Yeom !

2011-04-15T18:28:00.000+08:00

Hi yeom ! I'm back posting again (:
Today went to fish farm (: Mummy say after that go swimming ! Then end up never ! :(
Photos Uploaded in Facebook :D

Hope you will go out with me ! :(
I'll have to try harder ! :D
I wanna bring you go farmart and fish farm !!

Deep in my heart I already know the answer is NO and I still ask you the question and hoping that the answer isn't what I though...

2011-04-10T19:42:00.000+08:00

8 April 2011 -
It's JongHyun oppa's Birthdayy ! <3
This is for him ! <3

2011-04-07T20:04:00.002+08:00

I know you want to avoid me by changing your blog URL ! :(
Hope you can tag me your url...
Saddie ! You all leave me liao ! :(

2011-04-07T15:13:00.001+08:00

No mood sia ! Later you change your url liao then i cannot go your blog anymore ! T.T NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO ! :(

2011-04-06T22:32:00.000+08:00

Say me irritating ? Then when you irritates me , did I say anything?
Say me act cute ? Then why you act cute , did I say anything?
I didn't say anything!
I didnt know that you would write all this things in Facebook and as if I dont know like that...
I didn't say I can survive without you! As you already know that I cannot !
Why must you all think in this way ? Machiam you got feelings for what you thinks but no feelings to think about my thoughs?
What ever I do , i'll always thinks about your feelings first then about mine! Why can't you just forgive and forgets? Do you really want to end this? Even if you want , I don't want ok!

You uses to talk to me... And you said you know how I feel , you know I really cares.... And now what ? She say me in Facebook , you're there saying nice one lah... Whats wrongs with you ? I know I made you angry , but do you have to be in this way...? You know me so long already leh. You can't even figure it out about my anger ! Every time I get angry , after awhile I forgive and forgets but sometimes I forgives and takes s long time to forgets.... That day you two shoot my name out , you should had know that I will be mad about it... But you can't really figure it out how long will I be angry ! And in the end , I did angry but it's End just for awhile only !
Now j really don't know what to do... My listener & a good sister , my wife , my Nuer and my gf leaves me...
Blocking me in faceboks and now changing their blogs links....
Why must we be In this way?
This is nit what i want ! All I want is to be friends forever... Like how I used to think when in first met you....
I really need advices ! I really need to talk... But hoping that the person to talk to is you.... I really wants to cry out loud... But hoping that the person who can lend me her shoulder us you.... I really need a hug... But hoping that the hug is from you....
What should I do? Please help me !

2011-04-05T22:44:00.000+08:00

Sigh ! I did something I shouldn't do... I didn't mean to fight with you ! Im sorry ok. I already apologize and you're still not happy shi bu shi ?

Why are you like that to me sia?
I already try my best Liao leh. I try so hard and yet you don't even sees , cares or even feels it... Just because you keep use a negative point and sees me . Why can't you just forgive and forget ? I'm already giving in Liao leh...

2011-04-05T22:40:00.000+08:00

Daddy , happy birthday ! <3
Sorry didn't manage to say it to you face to face .
Sorry didn't treat you yum yum .
Lastly , I love you daddy ! Thanks for everything ! <3

2011-04-04T19:59:00.000+08:00

I hate you for treating me in this way but I still love you alot , i still miss you alot :(
I will try my best to get you back... But it's up to you wheather you want to come back anot... I don't want my last year of secondary school life to be a sad year...
I hate it when people bully you or even disturb you ... I really want to walk up to them and tell them to stop like how I used to do whenever people bully or disturb you... But I can't , you don't treat me as a friend already... :( sigh ! I will wait.. I will still have a little hope that you will be back to be... Please come back... I'm serious ... I'm not joking out... If only I could tell you face to face... I wanna meet you and tell you everything in my heart ! Hope you can understand my feelings for this friendship... As I used to not treasure it.. And now it ends up into this way....

I wish I could have friends who are good to me , love me for who I am , know how i felt , understand my feelings and many many more... But I only know you're the one who is a friend like this....
I really hope there will be a chance of us again .... I really hope we could start all over again... I really hope everything wax just a dream , a bad bad dream... :(
Is there anyone out there who can really understand my feelings and can feels how I felt ?

Wo yao ni yong yuan shi wo de Peng you ... Ke yi ms?
I don't wanna lose you.... :(

I will be waiting till I die...
I will wait for you smses and calls ! :)

Will I have a Second chance?

2011-04-04T19:24:00.000+08:00

Why do you have to avoid me again !? :(

Stop avoiding lah ! Machiam I will eat you up like that. See me jiu walk away fastfast ! Somemore still pull them aways also...
You don't have be in this way what ! Not happy to see me then kill me lorhhs ! That's the only thing you can do ! Don't step like machiam you're the only one whos has feelings leh ! I also human leh ! I also got feelings leh ! You treat me like that you think i will happy isit?

Will I have a Second chance?

2011-04-02T21:33:00.000+08:00

Went to farmart with SweeSeng and Didi today ! :D
Catch prawns ! :D There still got goats worhhs ! Pictures will be upload at my facebook (:
Now at home ! :D Just finish bathing ! :)
Cousin cooks those prawns ! :D
Bye yeom ! I'm gonna go eat and get ready to watch Vampire diaries (Y) ! :D
Nighty !
Goodnight to them ! :D Hope your hand and leg ok lerhhs ! :)
I miss you !

Will I have a Second chance?

2011-03-31T19:31:00.000+08:00

How do you stop loving someone when every time you looked at them and makes you want them even more...?

My Answer : I can't ! What I can do is to keep looking at you, And I hope to have the courage to tell you that i love you , i miss you , i want you & i need you !

Omgg ! My leg hurts ! :(

2011-03-30T20:20:00.000+08:00

Love+ Care = Mother ♥♥

Love + Fear = Father ♥♥

Love + Help = Sister ♥♥

Love+ Fight = Brother ♥♥

Love + Life = Wife / Husband ♥ ... ♥

.........Love + Care +Fear + Help + Fight + Life = Friend ♥♥♥

Do you know I was all this to you?
I treat you with all this !

2011-03-30T18:32:00.000+08:00

Happy birthday to my hubby , Lee Kikwang Oppa !

Saranghae Oppa ! <3
This is for you ! Hope you'll like it ! :D

Wish you all the best ! :D
Hwaiting <3

Will I get a second chance?

2011-03-30T18:22:00.001+08:00

Wtf sial ! I also never do all this kind of things to you ! Why must you do all this stupid things to me?

you think fun isit? Come out talk one on one lah ! I'm already trying my best to change already. Then now like this uh? Ask me change then you also never change. I also never say anything.

Sighh !

Question : Why do I care this friendship?

Reason : It's because when I was still a little girl , I don't have friends in Jurong west primary school when I was still in that school . After moving house to fajar road , I was in West View primary school .

I have friends. But wasn't that close like a closest friend ever after I met you in fajar secondary school..

I have primary school friend who are 4-7 yrs of friendship. But you and me 3years+ friendship only. We were that close like a family. But after I do all this and I really regret ! Now I'm changing ! And I'm trying my best to get our friendship back. And all this thing you do to ? It's not fun ok !

It was my fault for being fiecre towards you. Sorry alright ! It's really hurts when friends became strangers ! :(

I'm waiting for you call me out and talk out one by one... Just hope that you'll understand how I feel...

Omfg ! I dreamt 3 of yous ! :D One of them was the same person I dreamt yesterday :)

Hope it's real ! Not a dream !

2011-03-29T20:05:00.001+08:00

Woahh ! Nice Dinner ! (Y) ! Cost $81 ! :D I wanted to pay but end up daddy pay ! :3

Will I have a Second chance?

2011-03-29T17:04:00.000+08:00

Hi yeom ! :D Wake up , Changing into my uniform . tie my hair and off the meet sotong ! :D
Walked to school :D P.E lesson , run worhhs ! I got run leh ! HAHA ! Everytime i run , my leg will pain but this time , i run my head pain...
After that , see down relax .. Kenna hit by a basketball ... Wasn't pain at first but during english lesson jiu pain liao... LOL !
After school , Peii shirlaine to buy food at block103 :> Walked with her till weihong's house then i walk home :>
Reach home bath and just computer :D

Guess what ! I dreamt of you ! :D Hahaha ! hope it's real not a dream...

1 more day to Kikwang's birthday ! :D

Happy birthday Mummy ! :D
I love you ! Thanks for taking good care of me ! :D
and please.. Don't laugh at me when my love ones leaves my life... :(
Thanks for everything mummy! :D
Gonna treat you yumyum later on :D
Love ,
Your Daughter
Loveless IsRegrets&Jealous

2011-03-28T19:32:00.002+08:00

Can't wait for tomorrow ! Mummy's birthday ! :D
And after Mummy's birthday ! It's KIKWANG OPPA's BIRTHDAY ! :D
Tomorrow going bankrupt liao ! T.T

Will I have a Second chance?

2011-03-28T19:20:00.001+08:00

Wake up at 5.50am everyday
Tie my hair , wear my uniform & off to school (:

Meet Sotong Socken (: Walk to school :D

Lesson as usuals , Alone sitting there looking at you everyday ! :(

I want to know more new people... But it's doesn't mean that I know more people just to forget you...

Even if I know more and more people , You're still in my mind everyday ! Cause no one is better than you !

No one knows me like how you do ! No one loves me like how you used to !

I'll always remember you ,

and forever I will !

And It's true !

You're the one that I always miss !

You're the one that I love the most !

You're the one that I dotes the most !

You're the one that I care the most !

I'll be there for you no matter what happened !

I'll be there supporting you on what you're going through !

I'll wipe away your tears when you cry !

I'll make you laugh when you're sad !

In my heart , You're always be My Wife , My Girlfriend ,

My Good Sister , My BabyGirl & My Best Mummys !

And forever you'll be !

I'll always remember you !

And I really misses our time we had together !

I really miss you !

I know I should have told you ...

I was so afraid that you would leave me

And now , You really leave me ...

I never meant to hurt you with my words !

I'll promise you that I won't do it again !

I miss you when

something really good happens,

because you're the only one

I want to share it with.

I miss you when

something is troubling me

because you're the only one

who can understand me so well

I miss you when

I laugh and cry,

because you know that

you're the one who makes

my laughter grow and

my tears disappear.

I miss you all the time

but I miss you the most

when I lie awake at night

and think of all the wonderful times

we spent with each other

for those were some of the best memorable times of my life !

I miss you so much !

This one is for you , my love ones,

you're the one i can tel my soul too

Who can relate to me like no other

Who I can laugh with to no extents,

Who I can cry too when times are tough,

Who can help me with my problems of my life

Thank you for your everything !

Some people walked in and out of my life,

but you're the one I hope you won't walk out of my life.

You're the one I wanted to stick to you forever !

The reasons :
1. I go to school to study ,

main purpose is to see my love ones

2. I used to take LRT to school but now

I walked to school because I would hope to see you

while walking to school as I'll always be passing by near your house.

I didn't know that on that day , You're joking with me ! :(

Sorry that I'm fierce ! As you didn't know that I was angry and after awhile I'll be fine..

You know that , but you don't when this kind of me will happen...
I'm sorry for being so fierce towards you ! :(

Six things which strengthen the relations:

1. Good attitude

2. Helping

3. Trusting

4. Respecting

5. Entertaining

6. Forgiving Mistakes

[ hope you will do it too ]

2011-03-27T21:21:00.001+08:00

True friends are hard to find, Harder to leave, and Impossible to forget !
Are you one of them? I really hope so ! Cause to me you're one of them (:

2011-03-27T21:07:00.000+08:00

When can be like how we used to be?
I really misses our past and those memories we had together !
I really misses us laughing at each other when something's weird !
I really misses us doing things together !
I really misses us going out ! After you had left , I didn't go out at all...
I'm always waiting for you to call me or even text me and ask me out... But none of it happened... :(
Do we really have to be in this way?
When can we come out can talk about it again? I would want to faster settle this problem and hope to get back into our past again !

Will I have a Second chance?

2011-03-27T15:54:00.001+08:00

3days more to my hot & sexy oppa !
Lee Kikwang ♥
Which is on 30 march :D
Before oppa's birthday , Is my mummy's birthday :D

Kikwang's signature :D ♥

So Nice :D

Song For you ,
My loves

I've been thinking about you
And how we used to be then back when it didn't have to end ,
We should start all over again

There's something I want to say
I'm sorry , for what I done
Just wanna you to stay
Everything will be okay

If it's alright with you
Then I'll be glad to know it
Loves , let's take this time
and makes new lovely memories

Do you remember , Do you remember ?
Do you remember all the times we had ?
Do you remember , do you remember ?
Do you remember all things we had done?

Let's bring it back ( bring it back )
Let's bring it back ( bring it back )
Let's bring it back ( bring it back )
Let's bring it back ( bring it back )
Let's bring it back ( bring it back )

So long since you've been missing in my life
It's good to see feel you in my life again ,
But will it be a dream or real?

There's something I want to say

I'm sorry , for what I done

Just wanna you to stay

Everything will be okay

If it's alright with you

Then I'll be glad to know it

Loves , let's take this time

and makes new lovely memories

Do you remember , Do you remember ?

Do you remember all the times we had ?

Do you remember , do you remember ?

Do you remember all things we had done?

Let's bring it back ( bring it back )

Hey loves !

Bring it back to the time
when you and me had just begun...

When I was still your friend

Well , I know it won't happened

But it can be done if you want

I've got this feeling , of afraid

And It's just makes scared

Do you feel it too , my loves?

There's something I want to say

I'm sorry , for what I done

Just wanna you to stay

Everything will be okay

If it's alright with you

Then I'll be glad to know it

Loves , let's take this time

and makes new lovely memories

Do you remember , Do you remember ?

Do you remember all the times we had ?

Do you remember , do you remember ?

Do you remember all things we had done?

Let's bring it back ( bring it back )

Let's bring it back ( bring it back )

Do you feel what I feel? The feelings haunting me again and again...
Don't be so cold towards me can?
Its' hurts me more than your angry words...
My world , my life is different from last time cause you had left me...
I want my last time world and life , so please come back
'' Real tears are not those that fall from the eyes and covers the faces,
but those that fall from the heart and covers the souls ''

2011-03-26T20:37:00.000+08:00

You said that my friend will come looking for you ,

But even they do , I'll stop them , I'll not let them hurt you !

You get it anot?

你知道我的心吗？你知道我的心情吗？

你要我这样你才会原谅我？我到底又做错了什么事？

Will I have a Second chance?

2011-03-26T18:28:00.000+08:00

'' I would rather you tell me straight than ignoring me and makes me feel like i'm nothing to you anymore ''
'' If only I could turn back the times , I swear i won't do that again ! ''

The day you went away
The day you went away , my life gets miserable !
The day you went away , my life has no happy day !
The day you went away , I've been crying since the day you went away !
The day you went away , I always and only can see you from far !
The day you went away , I've been missing you everyday and misses our past !
The day you went away , I really regrets ! I shouldn't treat you like this !
The day you went away , I've been dreaming of us together !

My Thoughts
Am I important to you? Cause you're important to me
Will you come back if I changed ?
What will you do if I changed ?
Do you miss me? Cause I do
Do you feel happy without me? Cause I don't

That not what I want ! I don't want all this to happen ! :(
I really don't like it ! I hate being alone ! :(
I don't want to be alone ! Why is it so hard for you to forgive and forget?
I already forget and give in already... Why must we be like this?
I hate my life alot! I hate all this things that is happening to me !
Why my life is like this? I don't want !
If my life is fated to be like this , I would rather die !

2011-03-25T20:57:00.000+08:00

Words in my heart and mind everyday !

'' No matter what I say , no one will believe me anymore
but will you?''

'' I'm gonna wait and try my best till 2012 comes.
but if you all really never come back then it's mean i'm fated to be forever alone. Then I'll wash my hands of you all. Then I'll let go....
I hope before 13 october 2010 you all are still my friends...!
I really don't want to let go... I really don't want you to leave my life ! So please ! Come back will you?
I have lost my loves ones !
I have lost my love and get hated !
I have lost 勇气 to hold you , to get you back & to change !
I have lost everyone & everything !
I want it back ! Can?
People keep ask me to give up , I keep on ignore. And keep on holding... Because I believe that you will come back ! But I don't believe I can change....
I'm afraid that I can't hold on already but I know I have to...
No one is there to guide me !
No one is there to give me a warm hug whenever I needed it !
No one is there to lend me their should whenever I needed it !
No one is there to listen to my feelings anymore !
But whenever people needed me , I'll always be there for them...
Like how Jane Jieh needed me ! And I was always there for her !
One call , one text , I'm here already !
But why no one is there for me?
When I want to cry , I only can cry behind you , in the toilet while bathing? Under the rain too !
When I need a hug , I only can hug my pillow !
When I need a talk , there's no one or even nothing to talk to !
Everything kept in my heart ! 很辛苦！
我很辛苦，你知道吗？
我很想你，你也知道吗？
我很后悔也很吃醋，你看得出来吗？
我真得很想要你回到我身边！
我知道是我不好，我不应该那对你那么凶！
对不起！And thank you for being in my life !
Thank you for giving me a wonderful
& lovely memories with you ! ''

2011-03-25T17:40:00.000+08:00

First time in my life ,
I missed someone and it's was yous !
First time I miss people till I cried !
T.T
I keep think of yous !
I want to cry out loud but I can't ! :(
What can I do?

Day by day i'm getting weaker !
T.T I'm no longer a strong girl like before !
Now I know one of my weakness !
I'm afraid to be alone ! I'm afraid to lose yous !
Who can I go to? You..? :(

Will I have a Second chance?

2011-03-25T15:19:00.002+08:00

All I want is just a second chance and start a new life with you !
Can it happen?

Song edited by phone ~ ; Bleeding love

Closed off the love you gave , but i didn't need you to leave me ~
Once was enough and it's was hurtful already ~
Time start to pass and our memories start to reflash back in my mind ~
But something came into my mind whenever I sees you ~
My heart hurts and started to bleed ~
And everyone looking around thinks i'm trying to get them to pity me ~
But I don't care what they think , I just want you to stay ~
You try to run away from me but you don't know the truth ~
My heart crippled by your hate and i'm still keep on waiting ~
You hurt me a lot and I...
Keep crying keep keep crying [ love ] ~
I keep crying keep keep crying [ love ] ~
My heart keep bleeding keep keep bleeding [ my love ] ~
Keep bleeding keep keep bleeding my love ~
You make my heart [ broken ] ~
Trying hard to change but you don't give me a chances ~
Your lovely laughter fills my ear . and i'm jealous ~
Yet I know you all are still hating me ~
But nothing is greater than when your're right beside me ~
And when I'm in this world of loneliness I sees your face ~
Yet everyone looking around thinks i'm trying to get them to pity me ~
I don't care what they think , I just want you to stay ~
You try to run away from me but you don't know the truth ~

My heart crippled by your hate and i'm still keep on waiting ~

You hurt me alot and I...
Keep crying keep keep crying [ love ] ~

I keep crying keep keep crying [ love ] ~

My heart keep bleeding keep keep bleeding [ my love ] ~

Keep bleeding keep keep bleeding my love ~

You make my heart [ broken ] ~

And It's hurt all of me ~

Oh they find it hard to give in ~

I'll be waiting for you to come back and let everyones knows that I love you ~

I don't care what they think , I just want you to stay ~

You try to run away from me but you don't know the truth ~

My heart crippled by your hate and i'm still keep on waiting ~

You hurt me alot and
I...........
( Keep crying keep keep crying [ love ] ~ )

( I keep crying keep keep crying [ love ] ~ )

( My heart keep bleeding keep keep bleeding [ my love ] ~ )
( You make my heart [ broken ] ~ )

( Keep bleeding keep keep bleeding my love ~ )

( Keep keep bleeding keep keep bleeding LOVEEEEEEE )

Missing you day by day !
I missing your everything !
When will you come back?

Thinking of you everyday ! ♥

Missing you everyday ! ♥

Even when I dream ,

I dreamt of you and we were like how

we used to be ! ♥

Will I have the second chance?

2011-03-24T20:33:00.000+08:00

What I wanted to say....
My promises !
Promised to buy you a birthday present [ Haven't done ]
Promised to be there whenever you need me [ No one comes to me ]
Promised not to be like before ( the way I treated you and you don't like it )
[ Changing in process ~ ]
Promised to chance [ No chance at all ]

When I cry...
When I cry , It's because I care !
When I cry , It's because I really cherish you !
When I cry , It's because I don't want it to happen !
When I cry , It's because I didn't mean it to make all this happened !
When I cry , It's because I don't want you to leave !
When I cry , It's because I want you to stay !

Why?
Why no one is there for me whenever I need someone?
Why no one sees me?
Why no one understand how I feel?
Why am I in this kind of life ? I don't want this kind of life !

Are you still angry?
Hope you're not. I miss us going out. I miss us talking together. I miss our everything.
I really really miss you !

Why only one person know and believes that I'll always be there when she needed me to be with
her? And always comes to me.
Why no one will be like this to me?

I really hate all this ! I hate ths feeling ! I hate crying !
I don't want all this ! I don't want this kind of feelings ! I don't want to cry cause i feel pain !
Is there anyone or someone who really understand how I feel?
Now i have no one to go to...
One by one all hate/dislike me... I know you feel happy when you sees me like this !!!!!!
I hope im dead now !

2011-03-23T22:01:00.001+08:00

With friends , I have no weakness ! :D
I miss you alot alot alot !
Sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh !
There's nothing better than you..
No one better than you...
But now , There's nothing I can do anymore...

'' Friend is someone who understand your past ,

believe in your future and accept the way you are now ''

- Linus

2011-03-23T19:53:00.002+08:00

Feeling down now ! :(
But there's no one I can go to..
No one I can go and have a talk with...
No one I can cry to...
No one .........

Will I have a Second chance?

2011-03-23T15:59:00.001+08:00

Thinking of my past
Used to
Used to have you right beside me
Used to have fun with you
Used to go out with you
[ Now i go out lesser and lesser cause no one to go out with ]
Used to talk as much as I want
[ Now no one to talk to ]
Used to be loved
[ Now I don't know ... Some hate Some dislike ]
Used to have friends
[ Now I don't know who is my friend now ]

Should I Or ..?
Should I give up or continue trying my best ?
Should I just be myself now or change to at better one?
Should I let go or hold on tightly?

Thank You For...
Thank you for being in my life once...
Thank you for being my friends... or even more than a friend...
Thank you for all this lovely memories !
Thank you for all the things...
Thank you for being there for me before...
Thank you for the times we had together...
Thank you for everything !
I'll miss you !

Regret&Jealous
When I see you smiling , I get jealous and regret for all the things I had done..
And wanted to cry out loud...
When I see you having fun , I get jealous and regret again !
If i didn't done what I had done.. I might be like this too...

I miss you ,

I need you ,

I love you &

I want you ,

do you know?
I hope you will know !

Will I have a Second chance?

2011-03-22T19:12:00.004+08:00

My thoughts ~

Don't know?

I don't know what to do...

I don't know what can I do..

I don't know how to change...

I don't know how to get you back by my side...

I don't know when will the day come...

I don't know when will be back by my side...

How to?

How to get you back?

How to change?

How to get back my loves ones?

How to not be hated / disliked?

Misses !

I miss you ! ♥

I miss our past ! ♥

I miss your laughter ! ♥

I miss our jokes ! ♥

I miss our days ! ♥

I miss our time together ! ♥

I miss our everything ! ♥

I miss hanging out with you ! ♥

When I say...?

When I say I'm sorry , Will you forgive me?

When I say I'm sorry , Will you not leave my life & my heart?

When I say I'm not lying , Will you believe in me?

When I say I'm always there for you , Will you come to me?

I'm...

I'm lousy !

I'm irrirating !

I'm not Independent !

I'm a bad person !

If only...

If only I can change...

If only I can turn back times...

If only all this things is just a bad nightmare...

If only my wishes can come true....

If only you're right beside me now....

A true friend cares like a mom,

scolds like a dad,

teases like a sister,

irritates like a brother,

and loves more than a lover.♥

That's sounds like me ! LOL ! I so bhb ! :3

2011-03-21T17:55:00.000+08:00

Hate today ! Late for school ! T.T

Injured my leg during P.E lesson...

My Thoughts In My Mind ~

Afraid

I'm afraid to change into someone you don't want me to be...

I'm afraid that I cannot change myself...

What if?

What if I cannot change?

What If I changed and turn into someone you don't want me to be?

What if I cannot be like how I used to be?

Now adays I feel weak.....

What if I die?

What if I have illness?

Do you?

I'm always wondering

Do you feel happier without me?

[ Cause I don't feel happy without you ]

Do you feel good without me?

[ Cause I don't feel good without you ]

Do you remember the past we have together?

[ Cause I did... But none of the memories were us fighting... ]

Do you know how I feel?

[ Cause I know how you feel ]

Do you understand me well?

[ Cause I think I understand you ]

What will you do?

What will you do if i can't change myself to someone you wanted me to be?

What will you do if I changed myself but wasn't someone you wanted me to be?

What will you do if i die?

Will you?

Will you be there when I needed you?

Will you be there when I'm sad?

Will you be there to lend me your shoulder when I needed it?

Will you be back to me when I change?

I hope / I wish / I want

I hope / I wish / I want to turn back the time...

I hope / I wish / I want you to be back...

I hope / I wish / I want to change myself to someone good...

I hope / I wish / I want to die..? Can ?

I hope / I wish / I want you to give me advice !

HATE IT WHEN

I hate it when people bully you

I hate it when people disturb you

I hate it when people make fun of you

I hate it when people say bad things about you

Don't have

I don't have the guts I used to have...

I don't have the strength to change...

I don't have the guts to hold you back...

I don't have the smile i used to have...

* when will i have it back?

I may not be next to you like before . But if you need me? I'll be there for you (:

I may not talk to you like before , But if you need a talk.. I'll be there to talk to you (:

I may not be seeing you all the time , but i can see you in my mind and my heart (:

Will I have a Second chance?

2011-03-20T19:00:00.000+08:00

Afraid ~

I'm afraid to go to school ! D:

Holidays -

Everyday rotting at home ...

Best day this week ;

Thurdays = KBOX :D

Thursday night till friday = Accompany my beloved Jiehh ! <3

Knew one new '' friend '' ? Jieh's friend , HaoTing [ guy ] LOL ! Cousin's friend also !

Holidays seriously suck ttm without THEM !

My life now *

I hate myself ttm !

why am I always sad !

why all this things is happening to me?

Am I dying soon? Why i feel so weak now adays?

Why did i change into like this? Why am I like this now?

I want to be back to normal , the way i used to be !

Why my brother say them rubbish? They're not OK ! :(

If they are rubbish , So am I.. Cause I used to be with them..

Rubbish [ they ] & Rubbish [ me ]

My life now suck ttm ! Without them , My life is like i'm in a darkness place.

No light ! Cannot find the way out !

Can I just die? So no one will suffer anymore...

I hate it when I think negative !

'' Friends are easy to make but friend leave you easily ''

Is this true?

will I be able to make it?

2011-03-19T19:49:00.001+08:00

If only my wishes can come true ! :(

I miss you !

Will I have a Second chance?

2011-03-15T23:11:00.003+08:00

Omg ! Cousin's Ipad.. CMI already.. ! Sot sot derhhs !
I bring go out use still okok derhhs. Let didi liao jiu like that.. WTF !
Hope cousin won't angry ! T.T

FUCK LAH ! CCB ! YOU DON'T EVEN BELIEVE ME !

I ALREADY SAID THAT IT HAPPENED IN THIS WAY

AND YET YOU KEEP SAY I'M NOT TELLING THE TRUTH !

T.T

The past I miss ~

From the day you left my world , my life & my heart....

Everything wasn't good like before... It's was bad ! And it get worst day by day ...

I'll always start to reflash what we had done together ...

Like yesterday.. I went to cck kbox with didi and his friends...

Once I heard this song '' 帶我走'' I start to think of LingFang.. And I miss her singing this song..

I miss her voice cracks when she sings this song.. It's was so funny !

I was outside cck kbox... and beside kbox was a LAN shop...

I started to think of TingTing.. I remember that time she came to find me for awhile.. and accompany me to play.. but after that she has to go to someone wedding dinner.. I remember the way she dressed.. So cute ! Love her wearing like that..
When I sees pink... I remember of Susu... Pink really suits her alot.... She Loves Pink...

Whenever I walked pass shops with bear bear... I was always looking for a tigger & a Piglet...

Cause Alicia love tiggers and Shirlaine loves piglet....

Whenever I walked pass shop that sells wallet , I started thinking of Crystal... I remember that she wanted to buy a waller that looked like mine...
No matter where I am , I'll always remember all this things that was related to them..
My mind started to reflash all the memories. And then I will feel like crying..

I missed hanging out with you ..

I missed everything we had together ...

I missed everything we do together ...
I missed joking out with you ...
I just simply miss everything and you ..

Sighhh ! Now I have no confident [ ps if wrong spelling ] to change myself to the way you all wants...
What should I do? What can I do?
But I die die still want you...
I know I can't rely on friends all the time... I'm learning to be independent...
So what if I really change? Will you be back?
So what if you come back? Will I be able to like how I used to be when I'm with you all?
I'm afraid I can't...

Will I be able to get you all back?
Will I be able to change?
Will I be able to rely on myself only?
The more I think , I really wanna cry out loud...
It's not I want to think... Is OUR MEMORIES re-flashed in my mind...

A friend ~

A friend who

- will always be beside my loves until the end, wiping all your tears away.
''Friend'' smile when you smile & feel all the pain you had..
and if you cry ,''friend'' cheer you up...

- care everything.. and thats makes you feel ''friend'' irritating...

- when you have trouble , ''friend'' always be there for you...

- when you needed me , ''friend'' here for you..

- Need a shoulder? ''friend'' lend you mine...
Need a listening ear? ''friend'' be there listening to what you sad , words by words.

- BELIEVES in you .

That's what I called a '' friend'

Once you dislike someone ,

whatever the person do ,

you would find it irritating

Changing myself in process... Will you be back?

2011-03-14T18:11:00.001+08:00

Since monday till now.. My tears are flowing automatically ... I just can't control myself...

I cried behind a screen or when I'm alone....

Today I cried in school... I though I was all alone there.. I though I can cry and no one will know...

But I was found...

People keep ask me not to care you all anymore... but I keep on ignoring what the say.. CAUSE

I BELIEVE that you all still cares !

I BELIEVE in you all !

Dearest Meii ,

Sorry ! I didn't mean to disturb you !

I know I have to be independent ! And It's a must !

Sorry for what I've done ! :(

Forgive me !

Are we still like before?

Love,

Loveless with Regrets&Jealous

Changing myself in process... Will you be back?

2011-03-13T17:19:00.002+08:00

我又做错了什么？为什么不理我？

WHAT DID I DO WRONG THIS TIME? WHY ARE YOU IGNORING ME?

Girl , what should I do? I can't do anything !

You're my everything , I need you in my life , Girl !

Don't you know that you're the only person who can make me smile?

It's seems like you don't care , my tears keep falling but I hide it as if i'm not..

I have been texting you since yesterday ! 30+ messages if I'm not wrong.. 3-5 missed called.. Still no reply ! Why !? You not like that derhhs lorhhs . You'll always be there for me ! Now leh? Don't want me liao uh? :(

Walaoo ! Why can like that ? Last time you angry with me , we got talk out the problem then okok lerhhs. Now leh? You totally ignore me :( Please ! Please don't treat me like this ! Been crying since yesterday ! Thinking what I have done wrong.. What I do that makes you ignore me... :( Please reply my text ! :(

[ no talking bad about you ]

Why is all the bad things happening to me? :( Why?

Why can they always be happy?

Why can they always be like how they're? Why can't it be me?

Why must it be me to be the one whos sad?

Why must it be me to be suffering all this?

Why why why why why why ?

Family treat me like this , So called friends also treat me like this ! Why is everyone treating me so bad ! :(

All treat me so bad ! One by one like this to me...

Seriously lahh , What did i do? I don't know ! I don't know what are you people thinking...

Those words you said to me isit true? Can I believe in you?

All those words you said makes me happy.. But the way you treated me makes me sad , Hurts & disappointed... :(

You all said you are angry because of something I did.. I know it ! But I didn't did it on purpose !

That's why i'm changing.. But it just that you don't see it. You kept thinking negative things about me ! How will you be able to see me change...

When I say I'm sorry , Will you believe me?

When I say I'm sorry , Will you say you won't leave me?

When I say I'm sorry , Will you forgive me?

When I say I'll always be there , Will you believe me?

News says '' this year may 21 , might be the end of this world .. ''

many people don't believe.. So am I

But I hope it's true..

Cause I want to die !

No point living in a world which people don't appreciate what I did / do from them..

No point living in this world which people hates / dislike me so some small reason...

No point living in this world when I'm changing.. They don't even cares...

No point living in this world where people are happy and I'm not !

No point living in this world when everyones remember my mistakes and forgets when I do thing in a good ways...

No point living in this world where all my friends leaves me in darkness and they themselves in a place of light... Throwing me away when they don't need me. Get me back only when they needed my help !

I HATE IT ! NO ONE IS TRUE TO ME !

I USED TO SAY IF 2012 REALLY HAPPENED... I WOULD WANT TO DIE WITH ME LOVES ONES ! BUT NOW NOOOOOOO ! I WOULD RATHER DIE ALONE !

You all want hate / dislike me go on ! I don't give a damn anymore ! But remember this in mind ! No matter what happens, I'll always be there ! Even if changed , Will you all come back ? So what if you all come back? Things just can't get back to normal like how we used to be....!

Just remember that ! You all don't treat me as friends .. But I do !

It's up to you people whether you want to stay in my life or leave !

So what if i really changed ! No one cares !

Fucking no mood now !

Everyone just simply treats me like this ! I hate it alot ! Fuckkk !!!!!!!!!!!

I don't people to pity me !

You not happy with me just come talk out like a lady only. No troubles derhhs !

Don't dare to? Then don't hate me !

Why can't people love me for who i am ? :(

NABUAYY CHAOCHEEBYE ! KNN ! I GO DIE SUA ! NO ONE CARES ALSO !
I DIE LIAO EVERYONE SURE VERY HAPPY ONE MAHHS ! CCB !

Changing myself in process... Who can help me?

2011-03-12T16:24:00.002+08:00

Today woke up late ! Wtf ! Sick liao lah !

So what? Who cares ! No ones cares !

Thought I can continue... But now , I'm giving up soon ! Everyone is treating me like that..

Abit only jiu angry ! abit only jiu don't want care me..
I also never do anything wrong...

It's so hard for me to change while you people never give me a chance to change...

FUCK LAH !

Comfirm fail my N level liao lah ! CCB ! STUPID ME !

STUPID ME FOR THROWING AWAY MY FILE !

Changing myself in process... Who can help me?

2011-03-11T19:18:00.001+08:00

Today very cold sial ! :( Freezing ! Who can hug me ? :o
Mood so down just now ! Have been thinking too much.. Thought She was angry with me.. But lucky no :D
After school , walked home .. Saw Loves at one of my Love's block downstair.. They going out....
Reached home then regrets somethings ! I regrets that I told Ahyi about one thing... Fuckup sial ! She want go talk to cousin ! Nabuayy ! Next time I got anything / problems i'm no gonna tell ahyi anymore ! Just hope that she won't go tell cousin ! *Prays*
At first wanted to go youth hub slack. End up not going lerhhs ! Fall asleep (Y)
Just woke up ! (L)
Today got back my result slips ! Not happy sial ! 1 A only :(

1 week of holidays? Wtf ! Cannot see loves for 1 week... No one jio me out also ! Kannasai !

Hais ! Holidays rotting at home? Hope someone could ask me out ! Boreddieme ! :(

Ending here ! :) See you all next time :>

Changing myself in process... Who can help me?

2011-03-09T18:55:00.000+08:00

Yesterday I was fine ! Happily chatting with sister ! And I though today I can be happy too...

But no.. I fail to... Tomorrow must try to be happy ! IT'S A MUST !

Me when Yous 're gone !

Lonely girl forever ! Always Alone !

I don't want ! I don't want to be alone ! :(
No one see me !
No one cares for me like yous used to ! :(

Everytime I cried... Everyday I cried...
cause of YOUs... :(
I don't want tears of PAIN !
I want tears of JOY ! :(

Blue = me

White = you all
Why can you all be happy ?
Why can't I be happy ?
I just want to be happy like I used to be when I'm with yous !:(

Everyday I pray ! Everytime I pray !
I pray for the day to come !
I pray for yous to come back !

I pray for yous to be happy !

Who will be praying for me ? :(

My heart is broken.. No ones help me to pick up

all the small little pieces !

And I'm still fixing them.. Putting them back together...

Before & After

We used to be like this ! [ Left ]

Now I'm like this [ Right ]

I will ! I want ! I must ! CHANGE !

I will change to get loved instead of hated...!
I want to change to get YOUs back by my side...!

I must change for everything...!

But...will you be back?

Will you come back to me?

I really hope so... :(

Mummy -

You cried today... And I wanted to help.. but you rejected me... Then you ignore me the whole day....

Then I think negative again ! :( Sorry ! Sorry I mistaken that you are angry with me when you're not...

And I'm glad to know that you're not angry with me... Hopes your phone can faster repair... Cheer up ! :)

BabyGirl -

You also cried.. You're too careless liao...

You cried for? Don't sad please ! :(

When you cried just now... I really wanted to hug you like how radiah did... But... I don't have the guts... Cause you hated me... I'm scares that when I hugged you, you would push me away... :(

Cheer up ! Don't cry !

Wifeyy -

Don't you think that we are difting apart? Why like this liao? Why us? Why?

You said I can be normal to you... I can talk to you like how I used to.. But I can't.. You dosen't seems to even care whenever I talked to you... Or is it me thinking too much? I hope so.. Cause I really don't want to lose you !

You're important to me too...

Sorry

{ written }

To YOUs

Sorry for what happened !
Sorry for everything !
MianHaeYo [ 미안 해요 ]

Sorry [ English ]
对不起

I'll wait till you forgive me !

I'm Sorry ! Forgive Me ! :(

From : Loveless with regrets !

Changing myself in process... Who can help me?

2011-03-08T20:06:00.000+08:00

Today went to pick up litters -.- Boredd...
So dirty ! :( Then play Ipad in school.. (Y) Ipad is even better than computer ok !
Even if computer are also good C:
Good lorhhs ! You all go out ! Watch Movie somemore...... Hais ... Hope you all enjoy ! comfirm enjoying derhhs.. Without me mahhs. You all sure enjoy dao siao one...

So many problems sial ! WTF !
Facebook logining problems... Keep need change my password ! Fuck lah sial !
Then whenever I want to update my blog... I also need to change passwords again and again ! Fuckup sial !

Tomorrow going NKF... Heard from 4T2 that it's gonna be boring.. Hais ! Nevermind ! Hope my Ipad can entertain me...
Having headache now ! Was sleeping just now .. Then so many calls...
1. XiaoLian ahyi? 2. Didi.. who was sleeping in the other room.. Stupid right? 3. Daddy ! I keep say i don't know then now he angry for what.. Knn sial... Hais !
Aiya.. Fuckcare liao lah..
Hope headache kills me right now !
Just hope I can die earlier... I don't want to suffer all this...

Who can help me change?
Who can support me when i'm changing..?
Who can be there for me whenever I need you?
I just hope everything is fine....

Are you angry with me?

I can sense that someone is angry with me.. I just don't know who is it... Hais...

Am I still that irrirating like before?

2011-03-07T18:38:00.001+08:00

我又做错了什么？[ What Had I Done Wrong? ]
Why is all this happening to me?
I losts friends... losts love and gain hates ! :(
I have been changing already...
I started to change... But no one would realize... Cause no one seem to see me....
Why? Why everytime I just walked past you all what so ever ... You would get away? Walked away?
Why sial ? Like I get near you , you will die or what derhhs...

You don't even bother to reply my Facebook Messages & Blog tag...
You still can be happy... Then me leh?

You asked me to be normal to you in school... how to when you're ignoring me... Not talking to me... Why like this?I always think of others first before myself... Why am I like that? Cause I care !
Just now when you all are playing kites... I watched over you... I was just simply staring at you all...
I was wondering why can you be happy? Why are you so happy? Why can't I be happy?
Seriously I don't know... Maybe because I losts friends and loves and I'm been hated or what so ever ...
Looks like I cannot be happy anymore unless when you all return ...
My Heart Door Is Always Open For You... Waiting For Your Return... Hopefully , 2 friends has return...
I'm waiting for the rest to come back...
I bring Ipad to school today but the purpose is to play it with you.. But it seems like you are not interest in it....
Mission fail? So gonna try hard again to get you heart back... Must jiayous ! Hwating !
Tomorrow going NKF... Hais.. Will it be a happy day? Hope so...
Just ended slacking with Dearest Radiah & Bestie Idris <3
Thanks for the day... <3
Walked home after ending slacking.... Reached your block...
Ya... block 416... was sitting there hoping to sees you... But you didn't appear...

Wtf sial.. Now only march ! And I'm thinking / dreaming about October times... October 13 :D which is my birthdayy ! (: opening BBQ :D
Hope you will come :l

Ending here... Annyeong !

2011-03-05T14:19:00.000+08:00

TheNewMe

Now adays damn bored !
6th day I didn't go out ! Someone please jio me out !
I so gonna turn into a MUTE ! I talk very less in school...
Happy die ! Cousin allow me bring IPad to school ! (Y)
I hope i can play it with you ! :)

My love of silence

2011-03-04T16:10:00.000+08:00

After school was about to walk home... then shirlaine say want eat. I accompany her go eat... Then go wei hong's house downstair wait him... Suddenly rain -.- Suaysuay ! :<

We are wet ! Aww ! Damn cold ! :(

Wei hong come lerhhs I walk home alone (:

Hope she doesn't catch a cold :3 Weihong papa also .. Get well soon papa ! :>

Now at home damn boring...

It's been 1week ever since I go out...

Can't wait for the monday picnic xD

Hope can bring cousin's IPad ! So gonna beg him :x

Waiting for mummy to cook :D It's been so long since she cooked ! :D Love her many many !

Mummy going Genting on monday ! :) So gonna miss her alot :(

I promised to change ... And I will do as I say...
Give me a chance will you?

I didn't act 可怜... I didn't want them to pity me :(
I just want you all back... That's all !
I'm gonna changed myself to get you all back.. Hope you will understand..

'' People say after a stormy rain there will always be a rainbow...

Will my world have a beautiful rainbow after this big big stormy rain? ''

2011-03-03T18:47:00.001+08:00

I want to learn how to be independent like how suhailah mummy was...

I really want to change for you people... I don't to be hated ! I don't want to be ignored... I don't want to be avoided by you ! :(

Will i have the chance?

When I first stepped into fajar secondary school... I saw you two... We became friends... Don ahpek still can say we are S.H.E . I thought we could be friends forever till we're old... But it's all because of me ! I stupid feelings ! My stupid mind which kept thinking negative...! I so stupid ! Now you two are gone... And I regretted alot alot alot ! :( I really want you two to be back ! Like how we used to be... Can we? Will we?
I don't know.. but i hope so...
I didn't tell other people the story happened was your faults... I told them It's was mine... All my faults ! I told them not to go to you and talk about it... cause I don't want to hurt you two again...
Now I'm all alone !
They called me stupid for being like this... Called me stupid for doing things you won't even appeciate [ sorry don't know how to spell ] what i do... Called me stupid for being such a idiot here waiting for them...

And I told them... '' I know i'm stupid but as long as it worth.. i don't mind being stupid... They hate me or what... It's up to them... But as long as they know they are always in my heart and i will love them forever ''

They will always say this '' No worrys i'm still here for you ! I'll lent you my listerning ears to you...Cheer up Girl ''
I even dreamt of 3 of us being superstar.. like how S.H.E was... and other superstar were...
I even dreamt of us being together forever ! And i miss it alot !
If only i have a machine that could turn back times... I really will make time rewind...
I know i have hurt you all alot... when i'm your friend or not even one...

I told people not to disturb you... They always asked why cannot? I say '' They are my inportant people.. I don't like people to disrturb them even if i'm no longer their love one... ''

I really hope all this thing that happened was just only a dreams... My worst nightmare ! :(

I'm really sorry that i hurt you all alot that make you all hate me...
I swear ! I promises i won't make the same mistake again... I will changed ! Can i have the chance?

Will you come back?

Girlfriend -
I know you are talking about me in your blog...
Not I say say only.. I say i do it.. I say i want i will change ! but i have no chance to...
I message you in facebook then you never reply... WHY !? I'm waiting for the reply.

Baby girl -

Whenever you down like today during lesson time , I really wanted to go to you and talk to you...

But I don't have the guts to... Sorry that he scolded you ! I apologise in his behalf... Sorry baby girl !
Cheer up alright !
Is my request accepted ? Can we have at least 2 days of hanging out together?

Mama -
Sorry ! I make you hate me alor... I didn't mean to make you no mood .. I didn't know you are him....
thanks for the advice.. I will try to make it... I will changed !

'' My heart has been broken into pieces by you and I'm all alone here picking all the small little pieces up ! Fixing them back together again...

No one came to help at all ~ ''

I can never have the reasons to smile again unless you're back right be side me ! :(

2011-03-02T16:20:00.000+08:00

Chatted with Shirlaine Mummy yesterday ! :(
Didn't really know that she hated me alot....
Now then I know :( Sorry ! Didn't know you are having fun with Weihong Papa yesterday ! Sorry to disturb :(

I know I changed ! And I want to change !
I'm irritating ! I act cute ! I'm lesbian just to entertain you people i didn't know you all hate it... !
Anymore? Do tell me ! Please ! Sorry for everything ! :(

I'll changed ! I promised ! But will you come back when I changed ? I hope so ! :(

Everything I see you in school laughing happily , my tears started to fall.... my mind are full of our memories & our past ! :(
Now I have no reasons to smile like before anymore ! :(
I hate the feeling for being IGNORED , being PANGSEH-ED , being DAO-ED & HATED ! :(

Seriously , I really want to talk to you.... :(
Why are you running away from me? I walked pass you , you walk another way? Am I that scary? I got disease isit? why need do that to me? My hearts breaks when you do this to me... My eyes are glistening when you do this to me.... :(
I really want to change back to the past me !
I really want to be happy ! Not sad !
I don't want to think negative and then my mind full of our memories and our pass , then i started crying... :(
When can I stop thinking negative & stop crying ?

Can I have another chance again? :(

I hate this feeling ! :( Makes me wanna die :(

Whenever I cried , I hope someone will be there to hug me tightly and lent me their shoulders ! :(

Notes to those who hated me / dislike me !
Please tell me What you hate/ dislike about me ! PLEASE ! :(
I want to change ! I don't you to leave my life ! :(

2011-03-01T19:15:00.000+08:00

'' I used to say I want to rewind the time.... Now I want to see the future....! ''

'' Everything has changes ! You changed I changed :( Hais ! , but I promised to changed... will

you? ''

'' No one is listening . My eyes are glistening; waiting for this time to end... ''

'' It's so hard to lose the one I love ~ I'm trying to be strong but the pain keep holding on and

all I can do is to cry ~ When the last tearsdrop falls , I'm still holding on to our memories ~ So

now I'm alone,If only there's a wish I could be granted tonight , it would be to have you all

right back by my side.Now it's time for me to find back the past me again.But the emptiness

from missing you will never ever end. ''

'' Now I'm sad,trying to hold back but tears run fast,will this pain ever pass? ''

'' Girls,I wrote this letter to let you know forever,I'll keep you in my heart ♥

Girls, I wrote this letter, it ain't getting better, P.S I still love you ♥ ''

'' I was the one, that you could always , counts on , lean on ~ ''

'' I don't ever wanna lose you ~ I always wanna be with you ~ ''

'' I'm sorry about the pain I made you feel ~ But I didn't know I made everything worse ~ ''

'' I could still recall those memories of yous , The joy and the laughter ! I'm missing it ~ ''

'' Wanting to talk to you for some reasons I couldn't find ,finding out why everythings goes

wrong ~ ''

'' Tears falling down my cheeks that I've been trying to hold . I just don't know if I could go

on , I wanted you to stay & tears begins to show ~ ''

'' No one understands how much I love you , I miss how much we used to talk and miss all

the things we used to do ~ ''

Why can't I just be happy? I hate being in this kind of mood ! :( Don't wanna feel the pain

in my heart :( I really want to get back to who I am ! :(

2011-02-28T18:23:00.000+08:00

I knew that one day you two will delete me off from your facebook account. I knew it ! CB !
Why detele ? Fuckups ! :(
Now I'm want to get back together and is you two don't want ! You two rather let go and continue to hate me !
I know I got wrong lah ! You two also have mahhs ! I know my fault is even worst then two of your wrongs !
I'm already feeling bad ! I'm felt sorry for everything I did ! I forgive for your wrongs and trys to forget it ! Then all this came out ! Why sial ! Damn pissed off ! You two say bad things about me behind my back ! I never say anything bad about you ! You all talk bad about me infont of my so called new closes friends and now then also don't like me ! Did I do all this thing to you? DID I !? Now I'm holding on ! Waiting for you two to be back right beside me ! And then all this came out for no fucking reasons ! People in class wants to scold you two , and I stopped them . They asked why? why cannot? I told them that I don't like people to bully people I loved alot even if we're no longer friends ! Then they promised not to disturb you two ! Is not I want to break up at the beginning ! Is you two who are so cold to me at that time...! That's why I planned to break up our friendship. I was only plnning to . But after talking to some people , I decided not to. But I don't know how you two knows I want to break up the friendship... I don't know who told you two ! I though we're back to normal ! But no...
Once I asked you '' Can we be back to normal ? '' You answered back '' I don't know let the heaven to decide for us '' But it's looks like is you're the one who decides to end it ! Not me ! GET IT ! ?
Once I asked you this '' Are you angry with me? Hate me ? '' You said '' NO '' Then? Now YES? What have I done to make you hate me so much? I'm always the one who is giving in. I'm always the one who keep say I'm sorry. I'm always the one who keep think negative. And you two leh? Still so happy ! Still can laugh ! Still can pretend nothing happened ! You say I in school act cute , talk to guys act cute , school skirt short & I'm always acting like nothing happened ! I acted nothing happened is because I don't other people to know. But when I'm alone, I started to think negative...
All I was doing in schools was staring at yous ! Cause that's all I can do....
I wanted to come out to talk to you about our problem... You two don't want . Just want be keyboard warrior ! Like as if I will create problem like that. As if I will call my backs up down like that. Since secondary one till now , you got see me call my back up down anot?
Ok then ! Nevermind ! I'll wait ! Wait till you're back ! I know I'm stupid cause you won't come back !

Now I don't know what to do ! What should I do ! Someone please help me ! :(
I'm super sad right now ! :( I wanna cry ! Who is kind enough to lend me their shoulder? Who is kind enough to help me? Who believes that while I posted this my tears came out of my eyes !

'' No matters how much you hate me , dont want be friends with me or whatever ! I still love you ! Treat you as a friend ! Love you ! & more! And i'm sorry for everything ''

2011-02-26T15:04:00.003+08:00

Babygirl

I'm sorry that I gave you alot of stress when I'm your friend or not your friend ! I'm very sorry for that.....!

Now I'll try to let go you ! Sorry girl ! :(

Will be missing you and loving you always ! <3

Looking at you from far & near !

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Read your blog just now !
Suddenly I was in tears....... :(
Please don't give yourself so many stress liao ! :(
Sorry for everything.... :(

2011-02-25T21:57:00.007+08:00

Now adays keep go youth hub liao ! :D
Pooling and slacking only.

Yesterday Pool ! I'm so god ! 7rounds 2lose only (Y) ! :D

Today went to youth hub again ! :>
Did my delayed valentine presents for loves ! <3
Hope you'll like it . Please don't throw it away or what.. Thanks....

BabyGirl !

I miss our past !

Your machine gun laughter !

Your jokes

Your smiles

the way you ask me weird things

Your everything ! <3

GirlFriend !

- I miss the way we spent in the past !

Your smile

Your laughter !

Your everything ! <3

Omg ! I think I had really fall for you !
But you like another girl already !
Hais ! Need to give up liao...
Good luck then. Last long with her !
If you stead with her ! Jiayous ! (:

Loves
People who got the delayed presents (:
As long as I see you , I'm happy already ! :3

Alicia GirlFriend

Suhailah Mummy

Shirlaine Mummy

TingTing Wifeyy

Crystal Meii
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LingFang Nuer

'' I'm Willing to change but what to change? ''

Even if you don't treat me as a friend , I'll still treat you as one ! An Important one !

~ I want to hug you and whisper into your ear

'' i want you back , don't leave ! I Love you ! '' ~

'' I keep remember our past and i want it back badly ! ''

'' I forgive and try to forget , you leh? ''

'' I'm lousy , useless , hopeless , helpless

& restless with you in my life ! My life is miserable now ! ''

'' I know i'm stupid when i'm doing all this... But I hope it worth ... ''

'' I want to hold you now and tell you that I don't want you to leave... ''

'' If you want me to change , at least tell me whats wrong with me.... ''

'' When can we be like last time? I miss your cuteness
, laughter , your joke and the fun we had together !! ''

'' Wondering when will you still ask me out like before to slack or other things.... ''

Am I that bad..? Am I not good enough ?

'' I know I'm irritating to you but why am I like?

I don't like people will say I emo or whatever derhhs ...

Walaooo eh ! Like that also wrong uh?

This wrong that also wrong ! Wahhpiang
everything I do is wrong lah ''

'' Why are you treating me like that ! :( ''

'' I'm not afraid to tell that I'm in wrong

and I forgive and try to forget

, I'm afraid that YOUs won't do the same... ''

'' Even if I have to be apart from YOUs ,

that doesn't mean that I love you less day by day ! ''

'' When will the miracle happened? I'm waiting !''

'' I may not show the care but I care about
you alot more than you think ''

'' We have too many memories together

for me to just forget about you. ''

2011-02-19T15:46:00.000+08:00

Yesterday chatted with TingTing Laopo about some '' important '' things .

Finally I know why ! To know the truth is really hurting ! But not knowing makes me think negative ! Hais !

Seriously , don't why will become like this !

Say real horhhs , If I could rewind time...I would. I would go back and take the words from my mouth erase them so that they never were. Because I know that I shocked you. And now, you´ve changed changed in such a way that I don´t even know why & how. I miss you. I miss the person I love & care for...and I sincerely want them back. Please...come back to me..........

I may not be able to show my care for you like before , But I care about you more than you think !

I felt so extra when I with you ! :<

Am I not good enough ? Am I that bad ? :o Tell me please :<

Regretted2010 ~

2011-02-18T14:33:00.000+08:00

Hates to think that leads to crying......

Misses the past we had together :(

I just don't dare to tell you that not I wanted to chase you away ,

Is the feeling you gave me makes me wanna be dead.
Not I want you to leave and I really wants you back right now !
Can?

Now I can only cherish people I have now.

And hoping for something that is imposible thing

to happen which is you(s) to come back..

Nothings is better than yous !

2011-02-17T20:01:00.000+08:00

Thanks to ; TingTing Laopo , Alicia GirlFriend , Crystal Meii & LingFang Nuer for the gifts ! Thanks alot (:
Yours will be coming soon ~ Delayed :x Ps.

2011-02-16T16:26:00.000+08:00

Wondering what you'll say when you see the letters.

Wondering what you'll feel when you see the letters.

I really want the things that is impossible to happen to happen....

Read your blog. Everything you posted. Make me remember our past. I cried alot !

I miss our past ! I want back our past ! I want you(s) back ! I really hope i can turn back times !

What can I do? What should I do?

I'm Negative again !

I don't tears of pain but tears of joys ! :(

Now all I can do is to look at you(s) in class without letting you know.

But don't know why I'll always feeling like crying. And my hears HURTS alot !

Why can't we talk...? Whywhywhywhywhy?

I really need to talk to you(s)

Anyone can help me? Anyone can tell me what to do? Who will be there for me? Whowhowho?

Super down right now ! :(

'' I used to have Tears Of JOYS ! But now , Tears Of PAIN ! :( ''

'' Whatever I do,Whatever I said... You're still doing it all over again. Lie to me !

But I still forgive you . Because whenever I truly care for someone,

Their mistake never change our feelings.

Its the mind that gets angry but the heart still cares.''

If telling you the truth, about how I really feels inside could change something

between us, seriously , I WOULD !

2011-02-13T20:00:00.003+08:00

HelloHello ! Imma back posting ! (:

Had done my things for valentine's presents for loves !

Hate the feeling of not understanding chinese ! Arghh ! KNS LAHHH !

Hais , Whateverrr !

You've rocked my live with your '' CUTENESS '' , your '' JOY '' , your '' SMILE '' , your '' LOVE '' , your '' CARE '' , your '' LAUGHTER '' & '' the CHEERFUL WORDS you said to me ''

2011-02-11T17:59:00.000+08:00

Annyeong ! Back posting !

Vivian Nuer -

Don't tag those name there? No.1,2&3 . Ya ! They are you guys . But i'm not talking back about you ! I'm just posting out my feelings !

Schooling suck nows ! Cause now adays people hate me for me saying that i have attitude problems. Lmao. If i have , they also have what. Why am i the one that have to change ! No fair ! And to me i dont think i have. i even asked people , do i have attitude? They say no. so comfirm is you all talk bad about me then talk dao say i got attitude !

Youskeep pangseh me sial ! And i also never say anything !

Now you people hate me ! WTF !

Wondering will you still remember what you tell me on tuesday 8 feb 2011 , Guess you had already forgetten .Cause you can't remember anything about me !

Even if i disappear like just now.. You didn't even borther to call me or text me asking where am i !

Dont you know why i didnt eat during recess time?

Hate me also dont like that la.

Say i childish ! You also mahhs.

say bad things behide my bad !

I thought i have you liao i can dont need to negative again ! But then leh , still thinking negative !

Fuckkup !

I should just go and die ! And i'll be free ! No more suffering of all this !

You people hurt me alot !

2011-02-05T21:19:00.000+08:00

Happy CNY !

Wishing everyone luck in everything !

This year CNY was bored ! Angbaos all so less !

Now alot of people hate me right ! Hate lorhhs ! Hate as much as you want !

I'm sick of crying ! Tired of thinking on what to do next to make you people back to me !

Since you still can say talk to me waste KOU SHUI ! Since you can say i lied to you !

Since you can say you don't remember much about me !

I wanna talk to you ! But you two don't want.

HER No.1

People say '' hao ren you hao bao '' to me '' KNS LA ''

If it wasn't me you and two of them won't me close again ! You told me what happened and i solved it for you ! You cried on that day while talking to them about it ! I was there to help you ! Then what did i get back? Hate from you ! text you also no reply ! Facebook message you also no reply !

HER No.2

What did i do wrong that make you hated me so much ? I treated you so good and that's what i get back?

You said my attitude makes people hates me ! I didn't give attitude to my friends ! Unless i hate her ! Or just playing prank ! i only give attitude to my family members !

HER NO.3

What's wrong? I only scolded you and - HER No2 - During English lesson ! And all this thing came out?

Last year problem already ok liao leh. Now what? You bring back the pass !

You're the girl i dote the most ! And what did i get? HATE FROM YOU !

Now i also don't know should i do thoses promises i promised you !

Can i sleep and never wakes up?

Or when i wake up everything will get back to normal?

No one loves the feeling of being hated by people they loves !